one.month.whoa.

i am in absolute disbelief that exactly one month from now i will be a married woman. i don't know what i'm more amazed by - that it is FINALLY (almost) here or that i'm actually getting married. growing up - getting married and becoming a mom were always among my greatest aspirations, but i never believed it would actually happen for me. now here i am a mere four weeks from an actual dream coming true (sorry - i know its cheesy...)

the past few weeks of wedding planning have been difficult. i'm in this phase of constantly questioning the decisions i made months ago and can't change as well as endlessly worrying about silly decisions like how to wear my hair. up or down up or down up or down - i may just go crazy and rip my hair out before that decision is made and i feel ok about it! as much as i am anxious about it all i am excited to see all these months of work come together. i hope it looks in real life like it does in my head. i'm also getting really excited for the actual day -
i'm so in love with our ceremony and music
i can't wait to be around so many people we love and love us
i can't wait to wear my wedding dress (if it ever fits properly) and drink a cold beer out of the bottle
i can't wait to see grant at the end of the aisle - that is when it will all feel real
i can't wait to bake all week prior with my mom, aunts, and girls
i can't wait to get ready with my girls (and FINALLY see patty and jess!)
i can't wait to get the pictures back and finally get to show all of the fun little details
i can't wait to spend 9 days with grant all to myself (the dissertation can wait) we may never see mexico - we've vowed to sleep in everyday and drink margaritas in bed

I.JUST.CAN'T.WAIT. (just have to write my vows...)