Monday, October 20, 2008

one month in


i am in absolute awe that we have been married one month. absolutely insane. it has been one of our hardest months.

i don't feel any different now that we are married. we were always in it for the long haul - we just made it official. my name is different - that is weird - nicole simmons.

its just been hard because life is hard and we are in one of those times when it feels like we can't catch a break.

grant is quick to remind me that it is 2008 and we knew when we decided to get married, finish a PhD and move across the country (or world) it wasn't going to be an easy year.

i wish it were though.

things i am struggling with...

1. what to do with my life. how do you decide this when you want to be a professional capable of supporting yourself, yet long to be a homemaker?

2. where we should move, if given the choice.

3. the state of this country, on so many fronts.

4. how to get it all done. there is just so much.

4 comments:

Leslie & Lucas said...

I know just how hard life can get -- but I know you guys will get through it and you will finally be settled some place and figuring out all of life's little problems! Remember it is all about the journey!! :)

Holly and Everest said...

I've decided that being a homemaker and/or stay at home mom should be a paid occupation. You'd get paid if you were someone's cook or maid or nanny...why shouldn't taking care of your own family be any different. Now all I have to do is find a backer. Hmmmm....Bill Gates has plenty of money to spare.

Lacy & Simon said...

It is all about the adventure and living one day at a time. That is all any of us can do right now. You will be successfull in whatever you decide to do and whereever you and Grant decide to move. We were in your shoes a few years ago. It all seemed to work out but I could never have guessed at the time how it would come together.

Jenny.Lee said...

keep your head up! you all will make it through and then look back and smile. :)